side effects of being numb due to mental illness:
- not crying for weeks and weeks on end until one day, you’re breaking down over something that isn’t actually worth getting upset about
- not being able to tell if your feelings for people are platonic or romantic or if you’re just lonely
- instead of caring too much, you don’t care at all about anything
- not being able to process anything going on in your life and when you try, your brain stalls out
- losing your train of thought every five seconds, so when you try to have a conversation, you have to pause and remember what you were trying to say
- word vomiting
- mind “static”
Photographed by Gered Mankowitz at Decca Studios, where Mick Jagger was producing Marianne Faithfull’s LP “Love in a Mist”. London, 1967.
“There’s always been something in my life that has led me to isolation. But, even to this day, I don’t know why I’ve tried to avoid this topic creatively. The lyrics have been through a very long process of polishing. It was complicated to reach this stage. For example, that first line about The Strokes. I fought a lot against it, I wanted it but I didn’t want it. I was thinking: ‘Whatever, it’s staying, but I know I will change it in the end because there’s no way I’ll end up saying such atrocity.’ And it came to a point in which I thought: ‘If this is how I feel, why can’t I just say it? It’s better to be honest.” (int. / scans)
